December 2009
11 posts
oh flower of Scotland
I know it bugs everyone when I talk about Scotland. But honestly it was the one place that I didn’t feel completely alone. I felt God there, I was surrounded by people who genuinely wanted to know me, I was never alone and there was always something different. Here I’m in the dark about everything. I never know when anything is happening until it does or has already passed. My friends...
Black Days
fairetunes:
So how can you talk to God When you won’t talk to me? When he won’t talk to me
—Hurt
This is.. idiotic at best, but I hate being one upped by God. What the crap am I supposed to do for her if I can’t let her vent? Bah. I dunno. I’m happy she has a good relationship with Him. That’s great. I can’t say the same. And I hate that I’m.. at a loss of what to do as a friend for her,...
Please someone just scream for once!
Why must we always be so freaking composed! He’s not! and never do I force him to explain or take it personally. But if I’m having a bad day and lose just one beat of my disposition, he takes it personally and tries to make me feel bad for having emotions!!!!!!! SDFASGKSFBSDFBADGIJAdsgolejwhuflasjdbfwqieufhbas/dkdshfgljakdfbgadbgl!!!!!!!!!!! He’s just like his mother! It’s...
the perks of living by the mall
are very minimal. The traffic is hellish. Stupid non- Humbleoneons find your shortcuts and tell all their lame friends so there is absolutely no way around it all. An errand that should take 20 min takes an hour. “This isn’t my idea of Fun.”
Making presents and feeling lame. I know I’m just feeling sorry for myself but I wish i had friends that were more spontaneous and...
Let me go Home
I thought I’d be able to talk, but the words just wouldn’t come. There’s nothing interesting to say, because nothing is really going on with me. Perhaps except for angst and a slight relapse. I’ve yet to choose my target for The Mission (sorry) but I can’t seem to find anyone. Maybe when school begins again…. sigh :(. Sometimes I wish I were a bit more….....
i ought to be cleaning my room
but I’d much rather go rollerblading, or walking or something….
or maybe i’ll just sit here and listen to Jamie’s music.
today has been…..one of those “eh.” days.
it's right about Christmas time
this hair makes me look like Mash. I looked in the mirror and there she was. Same hair. Same glasses. Same countenance. Made me feel nostalgic (oh, something new and different for us). Ella’s mad at me. Because I’ve come to face the fact that the next year in a half will probably be spent alone with my movies and books. She hates that. But , unfortunately everyone else is moving on and...
Dark of the Matinee
The only reason to go to school today was First period( ALGEBRA III) and Seventh period (PHYSICSSS). Everything in between was down time. So just to illustrate how Exciting my day was… I’ll reiterate…
2nd period- mindlessly copied notes for the final that I’m not taking…. just for funsies
3rd period- ate goldfish and watched broken segments of Step Up and people...
Good rule of Thumb
Always go to Pipeline.
When in doubt…..GO TO PIPELINE
things just seem so much clearer and brighter afterwards.
all roads lead to Hamblen
and all unorganized after parties are at ihop. Caroling was infinitely better thn last year. Not sure why, last year was just…iono. I made a new amigo-ish. He’s pretty cool. Bummed a ride with Slashy to Fuel, came home to the news that the Choir-ies were headed to ihop. I’m now waiting on a text (that may never arrive) telling me whn to leave so that I can meet them. If...
older/one new line.
We can endure no longer the pain wrought within our souls
You hold on fastly to my hand and will not let it go.
The play begins intensely and ends in moods no less.
Your arm around my shoulder rests gently on my dress.
The bus begins to bump and sway along that country lane
the music in our hearts connects the losses that we’ve gained.
It’s been nearly a year since that fateful...